I haven't been on dA in a couple of months. Today I returned and found, while going through my stacks and stacks of messages, that I received a Daily Deviation (a great many thanks to STelari, whom I idolize) on a painting of mine.
That was on August 2nd, which happened to be three days after I found out that my mother has stage IV lung cancer. And so I and the rest of my family dropped off the face of the earth for a while, into that netherworld which was hitherto unknown to us, with which the loved ones of those coping with terminal illness must be all too familiar.
Everything has happened very quickly. She is home now on hospice, and still with us, but barely. As I wrote in my personal journal sometime in the last month, we are all in Limbo, and this particular variety of Limbo feels a lot like Hell.
I am sorry to go on about it. At this point, Real Life is starting to seep back into our peripheral vision, and so it occurred to me to revisit dA, and here I am, stumbling across a DD and a wealth of comments, faves, mentions and so on. My warmest thanks for them all.
I hope to start painting again soon. My biggest mental roadblock at the moment is knowing that nothing I create with my hands could do justice to what my heart feels.